Published inHuman Parts·Jan 10, 2020Member-onlyHow Ayahuasca Taught Me to PurgePlant medicine helped me release everything that does not serve me — I’ve been a walking fist lately. I’m struggling to really feel much of anything at all and then resisting what I can feel because it’s so unpleasant. It’s creating an untenable level of discord inside me, the sensation of being burned alive from within and seeping out as insufferable petulance…Ayahuasca11 min readAyahuasca11 min read
Mar 27, 2019Member-onlyLinking the Ancestral Chain: Integrating Tonawari Toad MedicineA few weeks ago I had the privilege of participating in an indigenous tonawari ceremony, also known as bufo alvarius, 5-me0-DMT or toad. I sought this medicine because I wanted to mark a shift in my life as I move out of New York City after 12 years and enter…Psychedelics7 min readPsychedelics7 min read
Nov 18, 2018Member-onlyThe Psychedelia of RunningThere are two practices that have saved my life: running and psychedelics. In that order. I could write a book about psychedelics, and might. This essay is a love letter to running. My early twenties were captive to a quiet desperation that took the form of compulsive, destructive relationships with…Running7 min readRunning7 min read
Nov 11, 2018Member-onlyInto the Crystal PalaceI spent the eve of my 30th birthday in Detroit, in the living room of new friends, floating on cannabis and kratom, and surrounded by mounds of luminous crystals. I had a rose quartz nugget in my hand over my heart, and two huge pieces of something beautiful planted in…Short Story8 min readShort Story8 min read
